I’ll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn’t goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you’re never alone

well I have to be honest as much as I want it
I’m not gonna promise that the cold winds won’t blow
So when hard times have found you
And your fears surround you
Wrap my love around you
You’re never alone 

May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when its time to go home
And when hard times have found you
And your fears surround you
Wrap my love around you
You’re never alone
<3 m.c. always and forever

i hate that thing that happens right before you fall asleep. Every mistake youve made, every word you wish you never said, every moment that made you cry rushes through your head and all you can do is cringe and pretend it never happened.

today was harder than i thought it was going to be. i finally stopped crying but no promises that its going to stay that way. I think talking to you about it gave me a little closure but its still going to be hard. i know we can get through this. i know you want to change and be different and im glad that im your motivation. i believe that you can do this. we CAN and WILL get through this together. i promise you i wont give up on you.

Tonights going to be the hardest, not talking to you before bed… not hearing you say you love me and goodnight. i miss those words the most. i know its stupid but i keep calling your phone thinking maybe it wont go straight to voicemail and ill be able to talk to you for a little but i call anyways just to hear your voice say your name on your voicemail. i must have called you over ten time today. this all just doesnt seem real to me. it seems like a bad dream. i never saw it coming which scares me beyond belief because if you lied about this what else have you lied to me about. i know i should stop thinking negative and start thinking positive but its hard. this is one of the hardest things i think ill ever have to go through. i know as the days go by its only going to get harder for the both of us but i know we can make it. ill admit at first i was so pissed off and mad at you that i didnt want to be with you anymore, i couldnt handle it. i didnt want anything to do with you but as i laid in my bed thinking, hour after hour, i knew that i couldnt give up on you when you need me the most because you wouldnt give up on me if we switched places. I really do love you, more than you know and im sure this proves it. i just want everything to be good again. i want you to be healthy and with me but its going to take time and a lot of thinking and planning but im willing to do it, as long as you do your best to help yourself.

I dont even know where to start. Its like this is just a nightmare i cant wake up from. Youre gone and maybe thats a good thing. The last few days ive been thinking a lot about us lately, our future and last night just blew it all away. I guess its true, never give more than youre willing to lose. i shouldve listened to that all along. Nothings really perminent or definite. Things change, constantly. People will do anything, say anything, be anything just to get what they want. For you to choose “blues” over me is insane. I never thought you would be the type of person to do that. I didnt think you were like the rest of them. I thought you were different. Someone i could trust with my life, someone i could trust with my nephews life. Someone i believed in, someone i looked up to, someone i wanted to be with for the rest of my life. I was told that nothing was certain, nothing was going to go as planned and i thought that that wasnt true. i through it all out the window when i met you because you were different and now that i lost you, now that youre gone. that you chose getting high over me, i dont know if i want you back. Whats a relationship without trust? nothing. Theres no way i would be able to trust you again. not after what you did to me and it sucks because i love you, i wouldve done absolutely ANYTHING for you and you took advantage of me and used me and then left me, for those “blues”. Its not fair. This is NOT fair.

1. You’re stronger than you think you are.
2. Mistakes teach you important lessons.  Every time you make one, you’re one step closer to your goal.
3. There is nothing to hold you back except you.
4. You can press forward long after you can’t.  It’s a matter of wanting it bad enough.
5. No matter how much progress you make there will always be the people who insist that whatever you’re trying to do is impossible.
6. You are limited only by your own imagination. Let it fly.
7. Perception is reality.
8. Your instincts can be trusted.
9. There is only one question to ask yourself: “What would you do if you were not afraid?”
10. It’s often hard to tell just how close you are to success.
11. The only mistake that can truly hurt you is choosing to do nothing simply because you’re too scared to make a mistake.
12. Never let success get to your head, and never let failure get to your heart.
13. You have to fight through some bad days to earn the best days of your life.
14. Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it.
15. Do what you love, not what you think you’re supposed to do.
16. Laughter is the best medicine for stress.  Laugh at yourself often.
17. If you want to feel rich, just count all the great things you have that money can’t buy.
18. Forgiving yourself is far more important than getting others to forgive you.
19. If you awake every morning with the thought that something wonderful will happen in your life today, you’ll often find that you’re right.
20. Be nice to yourself.
21. For the most part, it doesn’t matter what people think.  Follow your own truth.