I dont even know where to start. Its like this is just a nightmare i cant wake up from. Youre gone and maybe thats a good thing. The last few days ive been thinking a lot about us lately, our future and last night just blew it all away. I guess its true, never give more than youre willing to lose. i shouldve listened to that all along. Nothings really perminent or definite. Things change, constantly. People will do anything, say anything, be anything just to get what they want. For you to choose “blues” over me is insane. I never thought you would be the type of person to do that. I didnt think you were like the rest of them. I thought you were different. Someone i could trust with my life, someone i could trust with my nephews life. Someone i believed in, someone i looked up to, someone i wanted to be with for the rest of my life. I was told that nothing was certain, nothing was going to go as planned and i thought that that wasnt true. i through it all out the window when i met you because you were different and now that i lost you, now that youre gone. that you chose getting high over me, i dont know if i want you back. Whats a relationship without trust? nothing. Theres no way i would be able to trust you again. not after what you did to me and it sucks because i love you, i wouldve done absolutely ANYTHING for you and you took advantage of me and used me and then left me, for those “blues”. Its not fair. This is NOT fair.